Today’s dispatch originates from a place with no name, 
(don’t I wish  --   I mean, don’t you wish -- 
for if you realized what is really going on
you would want all of these daily reports to come from 
a place totally unfamiliar to you  -- but   --
the teenie little problem is that 
if they totally did
you would be totally unable to understand them,
(you know,  like how you already understand everything else.
Fascinating conundrum, huh?!)
 
 

In the real hell there are two separate pits of torment.
One is for ordinary people, who are tortured in the kinds of ways 
about like you would imagine, 
while the other pit is reserved just for those who spent their lives 
trying to “wake up”, 
and permanently alter their state of discretionary consciousness,
and their special torture is to not be able to ever 
think about things other than how they have thought about them before.
  And one guy bobbing around in the second pit shouts: 
  “‘Special torture’ --  big deal! 
  What’s the difference in this
  and how my life went any way?!”
 
 
 

The unrecognized difficulty inherent in attempts at internal travel 
is that every area you see on a maps that interests you 
will stick agreeably to your tongue when you lick it;
thus, there you stand with a 
sweet taste in your mouth  --  but!  --
there you stand --  still  --  motionless, as in,
going nowhere.

To the true explorer  --   destined-to-succeed,
the more attractive the idea,
the greater the chains it bears.

It takes an extraordinary fortunate adventurer
to ever suddenly realize for himself
the distinction between the map-thoughts in men’s minds,
and the unwritten reality going on all around them.

Only thoughts want to, “escape from where they are,
and go exploring, and discover The Secret,”
and only your thoughts will never succeed,
for the simple reason that 
human thoughts made up the whole idea.

Apollonius creates the story of, 
Jason & The Quest Of The Golden Fleece,
then after hearing it retold several times,
is so taken by it that he decides to 
find Jason and join in the search.

A way of estimating your chances of 
succeeding in this undertaking
is whether you thus far find these comments,
(a):discouraging & nihilistic --  or,
(b):exhilarating & liberating.
.........(I’ll give you a hint: the answer is (b).)
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Trying to get free when you do not understand what you are doing 
is chasing yourself around forever in a 
dark, locked room………………with your eyes closed.

“Whee! what fun!” some might say.

….a few finally tire of it, and figure out the next step.
(I’ll give you a hint: Chase the chaser.)
 
 
 
 
 
 

Every morning you get out of bed with the same body.
You get out of bed with the same survival instincts.
You get out of bed with the same 
emotional temperament.
You get out of bed with the same menu of thoughts.
Hint: Every morning when you get out of bed --
--  take the bed with you.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

When people with the genes that make them attracted to 
this kind of activity
first hear the idea:
“Man believes that he is fully conscious
whereas he lives largely in a dream,
but through certain efforts he can awaken,”
it instantly strikes them as indisputably true,
and all they then want out of life is to 
learn what these “certain efforts” are.

This is the most exciting, satisfying, and 
memorable day of their life……….thus far.

They first pursue the efforts attendant the 
initial description they read regarding man’s 
dozing condition.
Some never depart same,
while others will try out apparently 
competing approaches,
but no describable method ever works,
and no describable man ever realizes it.

When Apollonius’ Jason started the trip,
he stopped at a BP station for a map.
  After that, 
  most Apolluniuses never leave the parking lot.

It is not because Jason is stupid,
it is due to the fact that he is an invented figure
in a concocted tale
which Apollonius forgets he concocted.

   (Are you getting more pessimistic, or more excited?)
 

Many people, to the bittersweet end,
will stubbornly cling to their picture of the glass slipper
as opposed to accepting the fact that 
Cinderella is fiction.
….harmless fiction, that is.
All fiction is harmless when recognized for what it is.

    (More encouraged now?)
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

If you could think about the things that interest you
in ways other than how you now think about them,
the idea of, “waking up” would cease to be murky,
but then of course,
if you could think about things in ways other than 
you do now --  you would be awake.

So, you might ask: “What is the problem here?!?”
Yeah I know,
but ask it again:
“So what is the problem? –
why can't I think about something that interests me
in some manner than how I always think about it?!”
     I know, I know,
but ask it one more time:
“Why is it so seemingly impossible for me to 
think about a thing in a way different from how I 
usually think about it?! 
Why, why, why?!?!”
     I know. 
Now listen to yourself,
repeat the question over & over again to yourself
until something totally unexpected clicks;
and when it does -- 
you will be amazed & delighted.

Amazed at how obvious it is,
and delighted…well….just because you are, dammit.
 
 
 
 
 

The type of people naturally attracted to
this sort of activity are always of a quite perceptive
discretionary intelligence, and derive much pleasure from 
affairs of the mind;
thus the potential trap is already, (you might say),
“self-laid” in them in that it is all too easy for them
to be so captivated by the workings of their own,
and perhaps other people’s thinking that they
de facto assume that the kind of
info, and opinions of which thought is the medium
will be the eventual Golden Fleece.

This is predictable –   and  --
predictable error.

The corrective measure needed is to ignore
everything said by your & everyone else’s thoughts;
ignore what is said by thought  --
look just at thought.

    Look at the medium  --  not the apparent messages.

There is nothing of any value or help to you 
in the messages.
Not realizing this is what stalls out almost everyone’s little car
hardly before the little adventure has gotten under way good.

Don’t keep mulling over questions and problems that bother you
using the words & descriptions you have always used. 

No matter how proper & correct they seem,
they are useless --
--  they are worse than useless
since clinging to them blinds you to 
other ways of looking at the questions 
which would temporarily provide improved insight.

If what you think about things had any potential for waking you up 
would it not by now have done so?!

(Well? --  more discouraged  --   or –
is it beginning to dawn on you?!)
 
 
 

If in life something could actually, “be a shame”
this is it;
for a person born with an affinity for undertaking to
re-create themselves in their 
discretionary consciousness
to give up  --  to give in
before ‘tis necessary.

Forget about studying some method  -- 
any method  --  to, “achieve Enlightenment,”
and study instead this question:
“What is it going on inside of my brain 
that is behind my wanting to study
some method to achieve Enlightenment?”

This may not at first blush sound as exotic as
meditating in the cold on a far away mountain top, 
without food,
while chanting a magical word given to you by 
an Enlightened Master 
after you gave him all of your belongings,
(and signed a blank, promissory note),
but it is more of, “all that”
than any of all that other stuff can ever be  --
--  if what you really want is to 
see this thing through to a most glorious surprise.
 

Quit whining about not being able to find the,
right system, teaching, ideas that will, “wake you up”;
only by your investigating & understanding what 
“waking up” IS
will it come to pass.
 

In otter woirds:
If you really --  truly  --  want to wake up,
do not listen to anything that anyone has to say -- 
--  except me,
and what I say is:
Do not listen to anything that anyone has to say --
--  including you  -- 
       ESPECIALLY you.
 

          See how easy it is.

                          Jan
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Did everyone grasp that in my rendition of the myth,
Apollonius is not a person, and Jason & The Fleece his thoughts,
but rather, Apollonius, the thoughts, 
and the adventures of Jason
their somnambulistic distraction.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

To "be awake" is to know what is to be done,
but not be able to do it.
  To be really awake is to know what is to be done,  and 
  understand that it can't be done.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Okay, final word for the day:
To "be asleep" is to 
stand for your thoughts beating you in the head with
their version of how things are.

                                                J.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Well, one more thing; The Weekly Reminder:
You should not take anything said in these writings, literally.
 

................unless you want to..