In celebration of this being the birthday of schonberg, picasso, freud, and ornette coleman,
I offer you the following gift that I 
made with my own hands.

As long as your investigation of the “waking-up thing”
is based on the assumption that a crime has been committed, 
and that something is definitely WRONG --
you will never wake up, 
and see what is really going on.

Your thinking will forever be captivated by this 
collective delusion, and all of your efforts will be 
automatically channeled into 
go-nowhere ruts.

There is one gigantic mortal mind through which 
life carries on all of man’s thinking, 
and from which is each man parceled out a share, 
based on his genetics, 
yet all minds are invisibly tied together in a 
world-wide bundle.

There is a force-fed thought in all humans that says 
a crime has occurred on planet Earth, 
from which men continue to suffer.
Everyone attempts to explain it -- but no one can.
All they know is that --  “something is WRONG.”
 

A man is certain that something is wrong in the way 
other people think and behave,
and that something is similarly wrong in him.
Ordinary men generally accept this situation 
as simply being how life is, 
and go on about whatever business they have.

A few people throughout history however 
have become so fascinated and entangled in 
thinking about this that their whole existence is affected thereby. 
These are the men and women who,
once they hear of the idea of, “Waking-up,” and,
“being Enlightened,” are instantly addicted.

In spite of their specialized interest, 
most of such people still never get beyond the,
“something-is-wrong” stage.
To them, what is “wrong” with other people is that
they are asleep & living in a dream,
and what is wrong with themselves is that they also are 
asleep and given to passing delusions.

None of this is either so, or not so --  or not not so;
it is simply how things seem to be to ordinary men 
whose minds are but a part of the gigantic, 
collective one, but it is a view that has no individual relevance.

Its pertinence for the few is in the fact that 
as long as you think that something is wrong inside of you,
you can never wake-up to that other state of mind
wherein yours is in large part,
cut free from the purely automatic, collective one,
and your own sight becomes an original view.

No matter the joyous circumstances,
if you stop and look at this matter for just an instant,
you will always find that something inside of you 
still feels that something is nevertheless, “wrong”:
to ever come out of the shadows,
you must simply recognize that this is a natural part of 
being a human – 
a creature with thoughts-in-the-brain;
it is a species specific phenomenon, 
and has nothing to do with you or anyone else personally.

Human thought inherently thinks that, 
"something is wrong";
it is a readily observable fact in both you, 
and everyone else.
Realize it and forget about it  -- 
regarding everyone else.
As regards you  -- 
investigate the mater with all three eyes.

In a more advanced universe 
this inquiry should take all of five or ten minutes, 
but in this one, the time required is longer,
but if you never start…… well,
you know the finish to that sentence.
 

The reason that so few people ever get past, 
or even realize the barrier of the, 
“something-is-wrong” phenomenon 
is that no description of it even comes close to 
describing it;
for the means  -  the only means –
we have FOR describing it, (thought),
IS what is, “wrong.”

A man whose goal in life now is to, “wake up”
has no doubt that his present condition is wrong.
This is inarguable, beyond question --  a felt certainty.
It is from this position that everyone does,
and must begin,
but it is from this neural quagmire,
in which a swamp is up to its knees in a swamp,
that few men’s minds ever emerge. 
 

Those who have achieved a mental separation from 
the involuntary collective mind of man
have spoken of this is as a gift,
and while understandable that they would do so, 
the picturization is less accurate than it could be.
Waking-up is not a gift, but is the box it came in.
What is “wrong” is not what your thoughts say is wrong, 
but the box the “wrong” came in.
You are asleep because something about you is wrong;
what is wrong in you is not what the wrong so 
clearly seems to be, but rather the medium for the wrong
which is anything but obvious.
To your ordinary thinking   --  drained from the large and impersonal collective mind of man  --
what is wrong in you is the same thing AS the medium 
by which you are made aware OF the “wrong-ness.”

When something is wrong in your stomach,
your consciousness of the problem is quite obvious, 
and specific,
but with the sensation that there is something 
wrong in your consciousness itself
the brain provides no such clear information.
That operation of your brain that produces thought
does not produce thought that can 
think about itself objectively.
Thus your thoughts can say to you in your head 
that something in there is not right about how they are
operating, but they cannot tell you specifically 
what is wrong, nor how to change it.
Oh, everyone’s thoughts pretend to TRY,
theory after theory, notion after notion 
that purport to have correctly diagnosed the problem,
and who have the solution,
but anyone with even one eye sane 
recognizes all of these claims for the 
harmless foolishness that they be.

No thought knows what is wrong in 
the world of thought;
all your thoughts can offer is their observation that,
“something-is-wrong,” 
but anything beyond that   --  forget about it.
 

The reality of what I am verbally dancing with here
is totally beyond the scope of any verbal dancefloor,
and if from these words you derive only the idea that 
all I am saying is that there is nothing wrong with you or life,
then you miss entirely the ultimately inescapable 
inner reality regarding the nature OF ideas,
your ignorance of which is all that, 
“being asleep” is.
 

While your thoughts & attention are focused on 
what is “wrong” in you  -- 
as explained and justified by your little piece of
the great collective mind, 
(which, I assure you is totally without any
personal significance),
you not only waste your time, 
but if your aim is to come out of the cave,
something worse takes place.
The sense of something-being-wrong,
blinds you, deafens you, and wraps up all of your
other senses like the brain washing technique of 
isolating a man from all sensory input until his mind begins to hallucinate and create its own reality.
Again, what better description of, 
“living in a dream while not in a bed sleeping”?!
 

An alert man who can just barely detect the 
aroma-of-reality in what I am saying
can begin to turn his instant attention directly on the question of: “Where, from inside of me, 
is coming this feeling that something going on 
inside of me is going on in a way that is wrong?”

To one day suddenly see what I am pointing to,
which is taking place in you constantly,
and not in some faraway secret school,
or in some dusty, obscure manuscript,
is to know first hand the reality behind the fine sounding phrases of: 
“being Awake”  -- “being Enlightened.”
 
 
 

There is nothing wrong with being Awake,
but neither is there anything wrong with being asleep,
and until that is understood --  you cannot wake up.
 

…..neat arrangement, huh?!
      ….keeps out the riff raff  --  hell!, 
it damn near keeps out EVERYBODY!
 
 

           …(Ahhhhh, what wonderful words --  “damn near.")
 

              JAN