To, "be asleep" is to pretend to know.
 

In Bolivia today, my pontiff, 
in the port city of Goniff;
home of Jockomo Fee-Neye,
who, in Spring of '59 
proclaimed himself the sole author of 
Euclid’s fourteen most popular axioms,
an assertion that chronologically, 
some say --  doesn’t add up.
But we are not here to rehash some 
obscure mathematical debate, 
no my friends, 
no one knows why we are here --
…which is just how it should be,
…in that no one really knows why they are any where --
…THEY just won’t face up to it.

Take a seat, 
and prop up your feet, 
right there on paraguay
while I tell you some stories.
 

        To "be asleep" is to pretend to know what
                               "being asleep" is.
 
 
 

”Wanting to awaken”,
(as its fans call it),
is the world’s only game in which the participants
do not understand the aim, nor their starting position.
Anyway you slice it --  this is astounding.
But it gets even better -- 
they pretend they are not aware of not knowing. 

If a man’s problem is that his foot hurts,
he will undertake podiatric treatments until it is well.
If a man is incapacitatingly depressed 
he will solicit pharmacological relief.
But those few women and other genders who 
carry the banner: “I am asleep, but wish to awaken!”
feel themselves also to have a problem,(being asleep)
but one for which there is no clear diagnosis,
and thus no exact treatment.
…oh yeah,  almost forgot to mention again
the additional aspect of them not being aware of
what I just noted.
Oh sure, everyone who says that they are 
struggling to, “Awaken from sleep,” or,
”achieve Enlightenment from ignorance,” or,
”be Liberated from captivity” 
believe they know what they are talking about,
but all they “know” is
about the words they are employing 
to talk about a situation that is unknown to them.

Every person wired up to someday become attached to the ideas supra certainly FEELS that something is not right with them,
but it is clearly not back problems,
to be treated by surgery,
nor are they crazy, 
to be nursed by psychiatry, or psychopharmaceuticals,
and they each initially believe that they do have the correct identification of their “problem”, 
and after a bit of looking about,
believe that they do find a teaching, or teacher who can furnish the curative treatments.

First things, (if not first), then at least, eventually,
(and in this instance that should be you 
honestly asking yourself):
”What IS the ‘problem’?
I know that I confidently say that I, ‘Want to wake up,’
that I am sick of, ‘being asleep,’
but what do those two terms actually mean to me?
Forget whatever I have read or heard about them --
what do I personally understand them to mean?”
and the truth is --  you don’t know.
And don’t feel embarrassed --  no one does,
and for you to finally realize it is a cause for rejoicing,
not embarrassment. 
Shame would be in never recognizing this.
 

The most obvious follow up comment to the above 
would be to note that no problem can ever be solved
until the problem itself is correctly understood,
but in the sport-of-the-few 
the game is much richer than that,
for just realizing clearly that you do not understand at all what the problem is --  IS your cure.

….didn’t you tell me that you have a cousin 
     in La Paz?….
 
 
 

To be “Enlightened” --  don’t PRETEND to be Enlightened;
and to be Enlightened --  don’t say that you are not. 
 

            Let everything you do
               be genuine to you.
 

Do not say to yourself: “I am asleep”
when you are lying -- 
you do not really --  personally -- 
know what that means,
and by you saying that you are asleep
without a personal, genuine knowledge of 
what that means, 
you make the condition you refer to -- worse.

Examine every thought that appears in your head
to see if you truly, “know-what-you-are-talking-about” 
if you let it speak.
Certainly do not say aloud such, 
but even more importantly,
do not take any ideas that show up in your mind,
seriously,
if, by instantaneous glance,
it is obvious that YOU 
do not PERSONALLY 
KNOW what the hell they are talking about.

The trickiness is in the fact that your brain’s operation
is constructed such that the thoughts that speak in your consciousness are automatically listened to
in your consciousness,
and thus are they automatically --  unquestioningly --
accepted by “YOU” (in gigantic quotation marks!),
as being something that you “know”,
or else the thoughts would not be there 
in YOUR HEAD! (now would they?!)

       Ahhhhh --  but it’s slick!
       Trickier’an a bolivian tryin’ to see the sea.
 
 

But if you stay aware of what is going on in your head,
not, "what you are thinking”,
but, “what is going on in there”  -- 
and you take advantage of a special capacity for honesty
that is unique to those wired to awaken,
you can stop pretending and being dis-genuine.

If you want to:
it is easy to see, and then acknowledge that  --
you mostly don’t  know what you’re talking, OR 
thinking about. 
Try it --
take a quick glance and admit it:
you don’t know shit -- 
you and everyone else just pretend that you do.
There is nothing wrong in this, 
for without it, life as we know it would collapse,
(and man’s second reality, disappear altogether).

You can never wake up, see the light & be free
if you cannot be honest,
and there is but one form of “honesty”:
the admission that beyond knowing that: 
those are your fingers on your hands,
that you feel sad, 
that 4th Street is two blocks east,
that beyond knowing such as that,
you do not really know anything --
…and neither does anyone else,
including experts in their respective fields,
…(which is why men made up the notion of,
”experts,” and “fields.”)

But your only solvable problem is your lying,
not the harmless variety of others;
stop coasting along with the listening part of your mind’s passive acceptance of 
whatever its talking part may say.
Your mind is full of patent nonsense,
but nonsense that ordinary people pretend to 
take seriously --  they are supposed to.

If somewhere along the way you were exposed to the idea that men live in a mental dream world,
and it passionately struck you as valid, 
and explanatory,
then your problem now of, 
“wanting to wake up from the dream”
is one of being pretty well disgusted with living a mental life that is not genuine to you;
the thoughts in your head that you are supposed to accept as being, “you”
are simply not a faithful reflection OF the real you,
….whatever that might be
….which no one knows… 
….so don’t  climb out of one septic tank only to 
jump right back into another one by 
believing otherwise.

You cannot “know” what you are,
all you can do is wake up to the fact that 
the thoughts in your head do not --
no one’s can --  no one’s do,
and really, all that, “being asleep” is,
is not understanding this.

This is the annoying humor, (to the uninitiated),
in the statement that:
"The sure proof that a man is not awake
is if he says he is."
…(trust me, in a better universe 
this one’s a real thigh slapper!)

…were you still interested in seeing the andes 
before they close for the day?………………….
 
 

The lies, (ahh, but men, especially pseudo-mystics,
so adore that word --  “lies!  --  LIES!! --  LIES!!!
[which are,thoughts, 
which by nature, pretend to know that 
which they do not,  but back to the subject]),
the lies that thoughts tell men about themselves and about life are not only “lies” --   they are JUST lies! --
Nothing at all to be concerned about, 
or taken seriously.
What adult with your I.Q. and intelligence,
while telling a child the made-up fairy tale of
jack-&-the-beanstalk
begins to believe in the giant 
just from hearing themselves tell the tale?
Who? --  why --  EVERYBODY --  that’s who!
…(well…every NORMAL body.) 

The only thing bustin’ up your top forty is
you accepting the one lie that tells you that
what I am saying is wrong, and that you DO know
what you’re thinking about.

A man with an awakened mind may not be 
anything special --  but  --
at least he is gen-u-wine --
--  gen-u-winely what EVER he is.

What more can you ask?!

If more than this you expect from life,
don’t expect to ever wake up from the dream you’re in. 
 

    Hey --  snap out of it -- 
we have a plane to catch, and a universe to swallow.
 
 

                                   JAN
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

A man disguised as a kindly stranger
said to a young lad:
”If you spend your life trying to wake up --
you’re just asking for trouble!” and the boy replied:
”Perhaps, but if you do so spend your life --
who’s going to give it to you?!”
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

And one guys says that 
the only downside to waking up is:
       what do you do for an encore?
 
 
 
 
 
 

            Down the road,
            come junko yard dog......