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September
16, 2000. It is Saturday morning as I file
this report from Amsterdam where, for the benefit of those who believe
that modern science "prostitutes" itself, they are having a, "Hookers
For Hiesenberg Day". And speaking of quantum physics: the debate
continues between those who claim that realizing-what’s-going-on
occurs tout coup, in one discrete packet, and those who say
it comes in the form of continuing, gradual waves. ( Why not this
compromise: when the reality-of-it-all finally hits you -- WAVE!)
But on to our more practical and less theoretical considerations
of that certain omni-atomic subject of interest to us here. Today’s
dispatch consists of various stories from around the world which
I see as germane to our topic, (no matter how unwittingly
they be so. ….but then again: everything in everyday life that a
man may employ in his pursuit of that extraordinary goal
plays its part -- unwittingly!
And
thus is it always the case with those investigating that --
certain case.
But
on with our "witting" news, (eh what?!)
The
dumber they are -- the greater their taste for power.
This
is true in the world outside you as regards other people.
It
is likewise so in the world inside you as regards your brain
cells.
Just
look: is it not the most mechanical, parochial, and opinionated
neurons that primarily control men’s thinking?!
Who
can deny this is true?!!
And
what a scene we have; Full size Attilas in the physical world, and
synapse size Stallins in your mental one.
…..well
-- how many times have I said it: "Rebellion!" -- that is always
the solution.
A
father said to a son: "My most shameful confession to you is that
I
once had a serious interest in history."
….(I see
no need for any additional analysis of this story!)
The
only trustworthy form of promotion is -- self promotion;
the only reliable form of shilling is -- self shilling.
None
but the dumb can lead the dumb.
To
ever "see" what is really going on
it is first necessary to see the apparatus whereby men say that
they, "see what is going on".
The
Great Discovery
is not in "understanding" things,
but rather is in understanding whereby we understand.
To
be Enlightened
is to not settle for a knowledge of the surface of things
-- be they objects, or be they thoughts.
To really "Know" is to know whereby man knows anything.
One
man perceived a fracture in reality --
then discovered a crack in his glasses.
.
As
per their
history’s telling of it: Those who have "Awakened" have been continually
forced to deal with the question: " Exactly what does a man gain
by ‘Awakening’?", and many have offered many fine sounding answers,
but any man who feels obliged to respond to such a question -- or
indeed has the slightest interest in it -- is not awake.
Facts
Only Recognizable, "AFTER-The-Fact":
The Great Secret is not serious.
The search for it is quite humorous.
A
father said to a son: "Some facts are best left unsaid."
He paused while the lad pondered this – then said: "Particularly
the kind you were just thinking about."
In
the real -- grown-up -- Big-Time: "World-Of-The-Awakened",
a man with ANY idea about ANY thing
is asleep.
And
finally: The Only Financial News A Real Person Ever
Need Know: A man "awake" has --- lost
everything.
….oh,
one more item; The way to tell for certain that a man is enlightened-&-liberated
is if he is dying and doesn’t mention it.
….no, I misread that: If he IS dead, and doesn’t bother to
mention it.
Well,
canal traffic is beginning to pick up, and ‘tis time to depart this
particular city, ("even though I do write these reports in the nude,
at least I do not sit in a public window while doing it." – that
is the strangest message I have ever found in a fortune cookie?!?)
Gubersnootzle,
Jan
To
some extent, everything that everybody says is incorrect –
difference
is that those-who-know, (to some extent), realize it.
Only
those awake ever know the benefit of being awake.
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Sunday morning, September
17, 2000 in a small college town near the tri-borders of
Germany, Belgium and the Netherlands where I laid road anchor for
the night. It is almost eight o’clock as I sit here reviewing my
private sources of news concerning that preeminent proceeding
that prods our daily convergence. A variety of stories and headlines
attach themselves this morning to what I humorously refer to in
private as, "my mind", and I now am ready to pass them on to whatever
you privately think of yours as being in our combined effort to
break-you-of-the-habit. (Even amidst the liberalism of the
Dutch, still a blatant exercise in, "unnecessary intervention" --
unless of course it IS necessary in your instance.) Now the
news.
Much
of the collective sport common to man’s secondary, mental world
is in people disagreeing about, "how things ARE" in that world,
and since it be an intangible realm it is beyond the grasp of objective
measurements, and thus prime territory for debate and endless disagreement.
A man "awake" is a pretty simple affair; he is a person who is not
stuck in his own thoughts – which will always be stuck in agreeing
& disagreeing as to, "How things are in the world" of man.
An "enlightened" man looks past all such mental stickiness, and
just sees things in life as they are.
A thus "liberated" man also realizes
that if you comment on, "How things are", they ARE
no longer -- "how they are", but have become something else. They
are now part of a dream that your mind is having about, "How
things are" ………. a dream-about.
Question:
What peculiar type of rationality is involved in disagreements over
a dream that one man’s mind entertains, and with which another’s
finds fault?
Put
plainly: To be "asleep" is to --
disagree.
To
be awake is to break-the-habit.
A
father said to a son: "A
man trying to see-through-all-of-this has no interest in
the lives of other people." -- "Why so, Pa Pa?" --- "Because he
has his hands full with his own.", he replied.
The amateur mystics’ biggest weasel
cop-out is in their professing that their proper and primary
responsibility is to help the rest of humanity to -- "wake up".
(The boy later asked his father:
"Well -- how about trying to help just one person?!",
and the old man replied: "Okay, but how about finally selecting
the right person.", and the lad tugged on his sleeve and
said: "Ah, but I meant me.", and the elder said: "I know
-- but you still haven’t got the right ‘me’." -- "But that’s
not possible!", protested the youth, and his
father just silently walked away, shaking his head.)
There
was once a man who wanted to
dig up an unsightly tree from his yard. But due to some sort of
foul-up in his surveying measurements he ended up with his yard
totally removed and only the tree left standing.
Whenever the man who made up this
story would tell it to others with an interest in that certain
matter, the most common response saw them running from the scene
-- screaming and pulling out their hair.
Question:
Why mistreat the hair on your head if it is what is inside your
head that is giving you the frustrates?!
Better-Yet-Question:
Why pick on the thoughts in your mind when it is your mind that
allows them to be there in the first place?!
Hey
– Better-Still, (if you are still
here): Why cannot you simply look and wise up to the fact that you
do not know what you are going to think next, which should tell
an intelligent man all he needs to know concerning the proprietorship
of what he so loosely refers to as, "his mind & thoughts".
………(and some of you still cannot see
that it IS possible to work on changing the wrong "me"! Wheeeeeeeeeeee!!!)
Cosmological
Proverb Update: Things are not
only more humorous than men imagine -- they may be more humorous
than men CAN imagine, (or face, for that matter).
The sleeping sickness of meaningless
mental selection has two parts. One is in your approval of how your
thoughts perceive "things to be", and the other is in your disapproval
of how other men’s thoughts see the same things to be.
To an alert man the question is
not: "To be or not to be" -- no, the real question is: When
are you going to see through all of this?!
Some
Sports News: A man with a mind
continually engaged in senseless, "cheering and booing" is a man
who will never get-to-the-bottom-of-things and understand the nature
of the game.
The most
fun that ordinary men find to
have with their mind is the acquisition of new facts, while the
unknown neural fun of the few has nothing whatsoever to do
with – acquisitions!
….as I defined for you yesterday just
outside of Pauper’s Court: "A ‘Liberated Man’ is a man who has --
lost everything!……not ACQUIRED everything, not even acquired anything
new……No, when a man comes-to-his-latent-senses, and sees though
all of this, he loses everything. ("Whew!, and not a moment too
soon!", said one grinning man as he walked from the building.)
If you have any interests that
extend beyond your fingertips -- which you take "SERIOUSLY"
– then you are still uselessly entangled in thoroughly meaningless
affairs that will keep you from ever realizing what is
really going on.
A
boy asked his father:
"Is there no exception to this?", and his pa pa patiently
replied: "Why sure there is, my boy -- most certainly, and
one of them would be whatever you’re thinking about right
this moment." The old man slowly turned -- then suddenly
made a mad dash -- getting as far away from the son as possible.
Question:
If you have some solid idea of what the two figures of a
"father and son" represent in my stories, then I ask you:
Why the hell don’t YOU get away from the son part in YOUR
thinking?
And one man says that he has a motto:
"I say that it is a FACT: ‘Once an idiot -- always an idiot!’ ---
but I also say: ‘Be sure that you’re talking about the right
idiot!’"
Time for me to leave here, and get
to my next destination to file tomorrow’s report. Until then, just
keep privately saying yourself: "The ‘right’ me?!…….the ‘right’
me?!….", you know, like a question…like, "What does it mean: ‘The
"right" me’?"
Well, see you tomorrow -- but
wait! -- how will I know that it is you?!……….(guess we
alls just have ta take our chainces, huh?!)
Jan
What kind of fish is asleep?
"I don’t know."
A carp.
"I don’t get it."
Stick around -- you will.
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September
18, 2000. I write to you this Monday from
Alexandria where work is underway to restore to some semblance of
its former reputed glory, the renowned eponymous library. (Are you
aware, throughout the ages, of the many attempts to collect, "all
of the known knowledge" under one roof, and do you appreciate the
unintended humor therein? Without an understanding of the nature
of thought, you will not. But, I digress -- and I have not even
begun -- which would seem impossible, what?! Yes, unless you do
understand the operational realities of the mind). But -- on with
today’s coverage of that signal incitement, one of whose
singularities is its freedom from three dimensional, mental limitations
whereby from it you can neither advance nor retreat. It is always
there; always in the same place; always where you saw it last, which
was where you saw it first. It is always "there" -- because it is
everywhere. In this regard an awakened man differs from an ordinary
one in that he does not bother to deny this fact via engagement
in meaningless mental selections and vacuous disagreements with
the equally meaningless ones of others. That of course, from one
view, IS the news of every day, (to wit): "It is EVERYWHERE!"
You do not need to be in Alexandria, Osaka, or Samarkand. The very
news you seek IS under one roof, and at most, no further
than a fifteen-minute bus ride from where you are now. Infra: The,
"everywhere-at-once-news" temporarily localized to your computer
screen -- (if not your neurons).
The hunger for "Enlightenment"
is the desire to quit complaining.
The search for "The
Great Liberation" is a longing
to stop criticizing.
The thirst for "Awakening"
is a yearning to cease whining.
This private lust can be described
in other words, but none cut any closer to the marrow of the
matter, plus they are admirable in that few who believe that
they have the hunger ever see it in these terms, and
will dismiss same if presented with them.
No one will try to change unless they
think that something is amiss and needs changing. This encompasses
both their self, and life outside their self. Such is only "common
sense".
And if you see that something
needs to be changed, is it not your basic duty as a human being
to so make note to your fellow man?! -- and if this can be construed
as, "complaining, criticizing, and whining" -- then so be it.
When things are wrong, a man simply must -- "speak up!"
But note this: Men do not
find mental/verbal fault with the physical, "primary world"
as they do with their own mentally constructed, "secondary
world". There is no critical rancor felt toward earthquakes
like that directed at a competing political system; no one
whines about the superior size of the Pacific Ocean as they
will do about economic inequalities.
Put simply: The mind is
not organized to complain, criticize, or whine about
anything important. (The closest would be as concerns
death itself, but also note that ordinary minds do not
actually "attack" the inescapable reality of death,
but rather they concoct unfounded scenarios where in
its patent actuality is somehow miraculously overcome
in some vaguely defined, "other world".)
Put even plainer:
Ordinary thoughts only find reason to criticize
and whine in areas irrelevant to literal survival.
Look for yourself: your mind only complains to you
about things that are in truth, meaningless to you.
There is no better
describing of the condition wherein a man "sleeps"
-- even though he be walking about with his
eyelids in the upright position.
If you
will but stand aside your own
inner carping, and just listen………..you will clearly hear that the
prime rib of all human conversation is concerned with whining, and
criticizing matters which have no direct bearing on their lives
of the whiners, and in truth, about which the complainers have no
real interest.
Can this be? Look at the subjects
of your own complaints and criticisms regarding activities in
man’s secondary reality, and if you have the necessary, impartial
eye/I to ever get-to-the-bottom-of-things it is not difficult,
(though perhaps initially, uncomfortable), to see that you have
no actual "feeling" toward the matter; there simply is no personal
passion behind your critical pronouncements.
Yet another everyday, overlooked
example of a quite genuine reality to the notion of men,
"living in a kind of dream world".
You pretend to be violently
opposed to the foreign policy of the Labor Party, or
to passionately support the theological minutia of the
Methodists over the Baptists -- in fact you pretend
so well that if you never wake up -- you believe
that you believe it.
There
is, as is readily apparent, nothing
amiss or detrimental with this planet’s "secondary" business being
run by six billion whiners and complainers -- (things continue to
go "quite well, thank you"). And indeed, ordinary men find no fault
with their own constant fault finding, indeed, indeed it seems to
them that such is not only appropriate, but downright necessary
for the survival of our species.
There is no way that an ordinary,
sane, everyday mind can be made to see the situation otherwise.
The thinking procedure inherent in the human brain is in fact
demonstratively intended to operate precisely in the critical
fashion that it does. A man who never understands this -- never
understands anything.
There
are however, scantily strewn
throughout history a few men and women who, without usually ever
seeing it in the manner instantly limned, suffer a certain kind
of non-physical, "weariness". Something that no parent, priest,
professor, or psychologist can diagnose. But the allegorical, original
mystic, "Adam" knew -- he knew the instant when, "it was
too late". He knew the weariness immediately after being thrown
from the Garden Of Eden, the non verbal, primary paradise of the
purely instinctive, physical life and into the secondary world of
words, ideas, heretofore unrealized potentials -- a world open to
– CHANGE!, And thus was ushered in; the new day of criticizing,
complaining and whining.
And once again:
All
was right in the world.
Don’t you get it?!
Everything is fine, (unless,
as I always feel obliged to note, you find the matter of
your impending death to be a, not-so-fine matter, [and illness
being a gradual form of same]), but other than for this
childish, irrelevant "exception" -- everything is going
along in life quite swimmingly -- and an integral part of
what keeps it all flowing is the constant complaining, criticizing,
and whining.
Don’t you begin to get
it?!
If you are one of
those heartfeltly drawn to the idea of the mind
"awakening" to some other fashion of more enlightening
& informative consciousness you are personally
annoyed-by and weary-of the relentless whining and
complaining taking place in your thinking, and the
sooner you realize the practical validity of what
is herein pointed to, the more intelligently will
you be able to pursue this curious goal.
L.B.B.
– "Let’s Be Blunt": If you are
complaining -- you are sleeping --- and the subject of your complaint
is, "T.I." --
Totally Irrelevant. (And I did
not even get around to talking about the impertinence of complaints
and criticisms of yourself -- but such are on the same level as
the type supra, and I leave it to you to make the appropriate individual
application -- which, need I note, is the area of greatest significance
to a man trying to untangle himself.)
Is it not tidy the way things are
arranged, "outside The Garden" – out in the mental-verbal world
-- where if you are criticizing, you are sleeping, even IF
you are criticizing yourself for BEING asleep!?!
Who could’ve ever thunk of anythin’
neater?!
If you are whining to yourself
over your continual state of mental distraction -- you by
so doing, support said state.
A boy asked his father: "What is the
REAL difference between an awakened man and an ordinary one?"
-- "One of them recognizes the difference.", he replied.
Time to head to the runway -- the
skies call, and the planes have all that free reading material in
the back of the seats, (plus the librarian here would not accept
my third party, out-of-town card). Guess I will see you here tomorrow
……..unless you -- "Do The Deed" ‘tween now and then….in
which case, who knows where I might see you next?!
Jan
A father asked his son: "Do you trust
me?" -- "Hell", he replied, "I don’t even trust myself!", and his
pa pa patted him proudly on the head.
J.
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September
19, 2000. Dateline: Belfast, a city described
as, "divided" -- same as men everywhere feel themselves to be a
kingdom at internal odds with itself, (not much new here I fear).
But ‘tis good to see people claiming to be shedding blood over something
worthwhile like religious or political ideas rather than silly trifles
like food, or land, (the redeeming, instructional phase in my theatrical
sarcasm being in the phrase, "claiming to be", in that men do not
actually do battle over ideas and beliefs; neurons simply spout
the party line of hormones; words merely poetize justification for
the arm’s coup de grace). Since you and the physical
locale have already gotten me verbally walking this particular inner
terrain we may as well make a day of it and center today’s report
around this never-considered-subject, beginning with these two facts:
Hormones
are intelligence
-- and;
ordinary
men ignore the obvious.
When
ordinary men talk about what they believe to be true, and take to
be proper, they say that they speak from the understanding of their
mind, and yet anyone with walking-around-sense knows that the power
behind the throne of their mouth is not their frontal lobes, but
rather their endocrine system. The ideas that flow from man’s mouth
are certainly traceable back directly to cortical activity in the
brain, but everyone understands that the constant fuel that fires
all neural operations comes from the endocrine system and is hormonal.
Hence: Hormones
are intelligence,
and furthermore, (since everyone pretends to not know this), ergo:
Ordinary
men pretend to ignore that which is obvious.
Ninety-five
per cent of the thoughts of teenage boys are about sex -- why? --
because after rational reflection they intellectually decided that
such was the proper use of their minds?
Ninety-seven
per cent
of the thoughts of fifty year old men are about food. Amongst
themselves they no longer talk about where they might get laid
tonight, but rather they discuss where they might dine. And
this of course coming after lengthy, personal rumination on
the matter, resulting ultimately in the most logical decision
as to how to enjoyably spend the evening. (Women can mentally
cast their own counterpart in this scenario.)
Sex
is used as the initial example due to its inescapable, and easily
seen, omnipresence, but what I point you to herein is equally
pertinent, one step removed, in all of the activities that make
up man’s "secondary world". The hormonal force, passing itself
off as, "intellectual", is alive and controlling in politics,
religion, literature, art, music, fashion, in all of what men
call, "culture", and obviously in their customs and mores. Hormonal
forces being packaged and passed about as an "intellectual product"
are the bedrock of civilization, and herein certainly nothing
is amiss or assailable. But as is always the case with the likes
of my readers, what is of practical significance is in ceasing
to pretend that you do not know exactly what I am pointing to.
If you want to keep sleeping, and stumbling about in the mental
dark -- then do not look where I point -- just keep pretending
that you do not know precisely what I am talking about.
A
comprehensive survey of a man’s collected thoughts would constitute
his "intelligence", ergo: What a man primarily thinks about IS
his "intelligence", and just as ergoish: A man’s "intelligence"
is: Whatever he thinks about. Now --- (as everyone knows) ---
What
EVER is going on in a man’s brain is NOT under the direction
of his thoughts, but is controlled by his hormones. Neurons
are unquestionably, singular little entities, but their engines
are entirely run on hormonal fuel.
So
your intelligence can, for the moment, or at one stage in
your life be a "sexual intelligence", or it can be one of
"shrimp linguini". Or it can go from a matter of, "I would
like to fuck my neighbor’s wife", to one of, "I believe
I’ll firebomb my neighbor because he’s a Catholic."
Whatever
is on a man’s mind – hormones put it there.
Everyone
knows full well that your allegiance to a particular collection
of thoughts known as a certain "religion" has nothing to actually
DO with being alive -- as neither do your so-called tastes in politics,
music, movies, literature, and so on, in the nonessential, yet now
necessary, "secondary-world-of-man": an apparent scion of his neurons
-- but actual child of his hormones.
Without
really understanding what they are talking about, ordinary men confess
their awareness of what I am pointing to when they say that we should
not allow our passions to interfere with our mental decision-making.
This is their mind’s backhanded acknowledgement of the fact that
it does not rule its domain from the outset, and certainly does
not later on need the additional burden of this being made even
more obvious by the overt appearance of unmistakable, hormonal-based
passion. It is bad enough when you are trying to be cool -- and
driving a rental car --- without having the rental company’s name
plastered all over it. Just picture how Bach must have looked when
first accused of being nothing but a Buxtehude knockoff, or how
Wilson Pickett must have felt when initially dismissed as just a
James Brown wanna-be.*
Have
pity my friends -- have compassionate understanding I say, for
human thought. It is Cinderella all dressed up for the mental
ball, but not merely wearing a glass slipper, but in fact a
whole see-through gown.
Just
look. Just
give a cold, codfish look,
and you can see right through the flimsy garb of written
and verbalized, "human thought" and see and hear at its
headwaters the unmistakable omnipresence of hormones.
And
there is nothing at all to be ashamed of in this, (unless
of course you are suffering from a terminal case of,
"civilizationitis").
Only
the sleeping and seriously distracted think of what
goes on automatically in their mind as, "intelligence"
-- it is the surface noise of the hormonal current,
and it sounds alike in both the ordinary, and in the
enlightened………thing is though that the latter no longer
pretend that they have forgotten about this.
I
have mentioned before that to ever really get-to-the-bottom-of-things
and be as free as is possible around these parts,
you must either have a relentlessly reliable, "super
memory", or else have one that is super BAD! --
really bad, (which means, if you still have not
caught on, a WILLFULLY contrived, "bad memory"…..you
see, it cannot be a natural, "bad memory"
-- that will not do -- it must be a "bad memory"
that you have willfully cultivated for yourself.
See, (just between you and me), here is an expedient
explanation of the matter: Neurons HAVE NO
memory, and hormones NEVER forget.
That
is what confuses the sleeping; they mentally
live in a world of nothing but memories -- but
of memories that DO NOT EXIST.
To
"wake up" is no more than to realize this.
A
man who calls himself "intelligent" is ignorant, and has not the
least idea of what we are talking about here. Are you such a person?
if so, you are trying to fool yourself and not doing an adequate
job of it as witnessed by your perusal of my words.
It
is easy enough to say, ( and has been done so quite often by
the so-called mystics), that: "Men are asleep, and live in a
dream world, completely out of touch with real
reality.", which is thought provoking the first time around,
and affords the speaker a sense of separation-from and superiority-to
those to whom he refers. But the claim is vacuous -- I say that
every person on this planet knows full well precisely what is
real and what is not ………… it is simply a matter of life not
allowing them to admit it.
Being
-- one-of-the-few --- and eventually -- seeing-for-yourself
-- entitles you to one thing: You CAN -- admit
it.
Don’t
read books – listen to your hormones.
Don’t
follow gurus -- follow your hormones – with as always the
proviso that you do so with the constant, contemporaneous
MENTAL AWARENESS that you are doing so. (Why must I even
add the words, "of course" concerning you being "aware"
of whatever it is new that you have undertaken to do?! After
all, that is all that anything "new" amounts to in
this activity; Awareness -- new and additional -- Awareness.
That
is all there IS to all of this –
but
to those who see-it-through -- it is more than enough.
I’ll
end today’s dispatch there, and see you back here tomorrow, (if
you survive all of this for another day.
[Saying
this should be unnecessary for most of you, but I will say it any
way. My only aim in writing this every day is my desire that those
of you who want to realize for yourself what’s going in life, will
do so. It is possible -- people do it -- why not you?!
Each morning when I sit down; and look at the keyboard, and blank
computer screen, I think of you who will later read what I write,
and I say to myself the one that motivates me to do all of this,
I say: "Why not them?!"…………..and there is no reason at all,
why not. ])
Jan
*Advanced
aficionados of the Baroque could read this as: "Think how James
Brown must have felt when he was initially dismissed as just another
Archie Brownlee wanna-be.
To
be asleep is to criticize –
to
be human is to believe it is justified.
…….…(.the
few aren’t fully human then…………………...I guess.)
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September
20, 2000, finds me in northern Laos near the so-called, "Golden
Triangle", (? - setting of, Tinker To Evers To Chance?…….an homage
to The Three B.’s: Brahms, Beethoven & Bruckner? [Bach already
got his mention in yesterday’s report]……..the last sighting of Buddy
Holly, Richie Valens & The Big Bopper? or does it have something
to do with, The Father, The Son & The Heebie-Jeebies?), Actually
it refers to the area purported to be the primary supply point for
today’s most popular recreation drugs. (Speaking of such. Do you
know what has always been man’s main addiction? -- himself.
Each person’s habit of accepting the chemical activity in a certain
part of their brain as, (now get this), as being -- who they
are! Not their innate, visible, obvious physical totality --
but rather they believe that "they" are the uncontrollable, uninvited,
lopsided thoughts that percolate in their frontal lobes. Can you
believe that?! Are these people from the same planet as the rest
of us?! What are they trying to accomplish by this transparent pretense?!
But -- on with today’s news concerning a totally different subject.
You
cannot quit drinking with help
-- nor,
get
pumped up with a personal trainer.
Only
the great pretenders of the world, (read, "the ordinary"),
persist in the childish humbuggery of claiming that outside assistance
is required for them to effect change in their lives, (as though
such change is possible to begin with, but that’s another story
for another day……when you are not so hung over……you overdid "trying-to-be-your-apparent-self"
again last night, didn’t you).
Billions
of routine people pay other people to help them lose weight;
to stop drinking; to stop beating their sexual partner, or to
help force them to exercise, or to study, and indeed, taking
such action is heralded as a sign of their insight and ability
to, "deal with the harsh realities of life".
A
man who really is anxious to get-to-the-bottom-of-things
must see this for what it actually is -- socializing --
a hobby --- an acceptable form of public self-pity.
You
can torture or berate a zebra until he will deny that
he is one -- but he will continue to BE a zebra.
You
will never "wake up" with someone helping you.
That
is the good news -- IF I can trick you, (I’m sorry, I meant to say), if I
can make you understand it.
Surely
you do realize the radical foolishness and blatant attempt at self
deception in people claiming that they want to lose weight, but
cannot alter their own eating habits without outside assistance?!
--- and the extended unintentional humor of this approach is that
it seems to succeed. (But how difficult is it to get Candide to
dress better?!)
Unless
the whole notion of needing "a support group" to stop drinking
smells as bad to you as last decade’s "serious",avant garde
music, then you are just pretending to be interested in what
I am writing about herein. But as always, the real purpose of
my introducing this topic is elsewhere.
Between
his petrifying liver, his doctor’s dire warnings, his outstanding
collection of drunk driving convictions, and his family’s constant
nagging, a man may sign on with the abstinence program with some
"support group", and physically stop consuming alcohol, but
as they love to say, "I have not actually "STOPPED drinking!", I
just haven’t had a drink TODAY!", which is another plain example
of people freely acknowledging the reality-of-things while everyone
else just as freely -- ignores it.
A
person may have stopped having scotch, or desserts, but they
have not stopped wanting them , and thinking about them, and
this is all that ordinary people ask for. So for them: "Case
Closed." -- they are satisfied with the end result. The money
they paid and the time they spent was worth it to them. (You
might also note how religion finds a home in this.) But a man
who wants to see and know for himself just what is -- going-on-with-life
--- will NEVER be content with such so-called, "results".
It
is not good enough to STOP being distracted --- No, the few
want to stop WANTING to be distracted. (If this makes no sense
whatsoever to you, don’t sweat it -- I threw it in at this juncture
just to upset the distracted, and run off those who already
believe that they are not.)
No
one could ever commence this undertaking without the
outside verbally-descriptive-help of some other person either living
or dead. Without the archetypical, first-awakened man, "Adam", we
would not even be sitting here discussing this. Without the words
of some other human being about this certain matter, how
would anyone ever even get started?! About this reality, there is
no question -- and yet -- it presents its own usually unrealized
"problem". (The tune goes like this):
It
requires outside help to get started,
but
WITH help --- you will never reach completion.
To
unopened ears this sounds like verbal, hocus-pocus -- intentional
metaphysical foolishness perhaps -- but it is not.
No
matter the intensity of your hunger for the secret-to-all-of-this,
as long as you think that someone else has it now, and that
through appropriate sincerity and homage to them that it can
be passed on to you, you will remain a frustrated AA attendee
who may not have a drink in his hand, but forever has one on
his mind.
No
one can "wake
you up."
--
no
one can "set
you free",
and
no one can "show
you the light".
…..I
wish it were so!, (I just said that to make you feel better).
And
even after having said all-of-that, I must note that
all-of-that is not how it seems to happen to
a person as it is happening to them
With
quite rare exceptions, every person who seriously becomes involved
with this kind of activity does so under the apparent
guidance of some other person, (or the institutionalized version
of some dead person’s), and I do not see how it could be otherwise.
But as long as you think that the thing, (whatever it is), that
you seek which will satisfy this gnawing, splendiferous, special
hunger actually exists some where --- actually exists
some place outside of your own skin -- you will never find
it. It will always seem to be tantalizingly, "just out of reach".
You will constantly feel as though you can, "almost touch it" --
but "not quite". And why? -- because you reach in the wrong direction…..you
reach OUT, when what you seek is IN you.*
The whole, entire, total, complete shootin’ match is -- right this
very second -- right in the very middle of the electrochemical activity
going on in your very brain that you think-of-and-overlook-as --
"thoughts"
I
am fully, painfully aware of how annoying and frustrating
talk like this can be on this subject when you can not seem
to instantly grab hold of and comprehend it -- (and that
itself offers a suggestive albeit, most subtle hint as to what
I point to.)
No
one with the hunger
for this sort of thing can be initially told that what they
seek is in them now. Such a statement seems plainly untrue.
But the unseen trickery of the situation is that the nature
of the thing behind the thoughts in the person that rejects
the statement IS indeed what they seek, but indeed
will never be seen until the person discovers for their
self the necessity-to, and ability-to --- see-though-their-own-thoughts.
The
"Secret" is not in your thoughts;
the
secret is in what is BEHIND your thoughts,
and
the REAL secret is that
there
IS NOTHING behind
your thoughts.
(Now
back to the grown person’s version of today’s opening
headline)
Fact:
No one can ever fully awaken as long as they are receiving help.
Super
Fact:
No one will ever catch on to what is going on as long
as they think that their thoughts about "catching-on" are helping
them, rather than their thoughts about "catching-on" being the only
thing standing between them and their, "catching-on".
Neat,
huh?!
Simple,
huh?!……….well-l-l-l-l-l, we can’t really go so far as to say that!
"Simple"
is too complex a word -- in fact it is words just like that that
keep a man from realizing what is obvious and right before him……..……..in
fact it is ANY words that do so. Neat, huh?!
It
was Jack The Ripper who brought you to this bloody dance,
and ‘tis only him who can drive you safely home.
……(I
say, look up the word, "Neat", and see if life’s picture is
not beside it.)
THINK
ABOUT IT!!! (I just threw that in for comedy
relief.)
I
will cut today’s dispatch here, and let you get back to your important
business of "recuperatin’" -- you know, getting’ back to bein’ your
"old self" again. ……that is what you want,
isn’t it?!, (least you can do is lie to me and say that it’s
not.)
See
you later, (or as Italian dog lovers say, "Chow".)
Jan
*
Truth-of-truth is that it is not actually inside you -- it is everywhere!…….(but
why get into all of that?!)
How
To Spot A Man Who Knows What Is Going On:
He
is the guy you never realize is in disguise.
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September
21, 2000 finds me in Victoria, Mexico where they are celebrating,"The
Day The Living Few Open The Box" (which the mayor says has proven
much more exciting than either, "The Day The Ordinary Pretend To
Be Alive", or "The Day The Dead Are Pretty Well Confirmed To Be
So".) During the 24 hours of the festivities, posters, handbills
and notes are found all around town that make statements about human
life which during the rest of the year would be incomprehensible
to the citizenry. I asked the mayor if he could explain this unusual
phenomenon -- he looked puzzled for a moment, then said that no
one had ever tried -- and walked away, (definitely my kind of place.)
I believe I will pull up a cold Corona, and stroll around town,
and take in whatever ephemera mental signposts are herein offered.
Come on, walk with me.
If
life is a struggle -- you are dead already.
Why
does not the fact that people cannot be, "talked into" anything
cause a widespread "coming-to-your-senses" amongst the populous?
If you can look
in a mirror and believe that you know who you are -- you do not
know who you are.
If your
thoughts are your enemy -- you are asleep.
If
you believe that your thoughts are your best ally -- you are
confused.
If you begin to realize that your thoughts have no real interest
in you, (since it is them who are calling themselves,
"you"), you are making
progress.
Never
watch a movie with an actor in it who you recognize --
especially if he is one you like.
Root
canal work, and worrying-about, root canal work are two entirely
different things -- and one of them is much worse.
If
you do not think beyond your own thoughts -- you are not making
maximum use of the mind.
The
more you go by how your thoughts say that you feel, the less
awareness you will have of what your thoughts are doing, and
thus greater will be your inclination to feel as your thoughts
say that you do. This entire arrangement being easily shattered
by attention being given to thoughts themselves, rather to what
thoughts are saying to you.
Behind
every great man is a great nothingness.
People
take being who they apparently are FAR too seriously. What you actually
are is nothing serious at all, nor does your silent, instinctive
self think so; ‘tis only your thoughts that do -- and of what significance
is that, in that the "you" that you take seriously is nothing
more than those very same thoughts?!
It
is not easy to get Batman to bad mouth himself --
and
even if you do -- what does it prove?
To
BE insultable
is
to GET insulted.
The
first philosopher said: "I call everyone who criticizes me,
‘Friend’.", and the second philosopher said: "Why, because you
can always benefit from someone’s criticism?", "No.", he replied:
"I call everyone in whom I have no interest, ‘Friend’."
There
are the twin foolishnesses of: Believing that someone died
for your sins, and of believing that you have sins.
To
be LIABLE TO condemnation is to BE condemned,
(a
truth known only to sleepers).
History
only proves the need for something other than history.
To
awaken requires an exceptionally bad memory, this in spite of
the fact that all systems that claim dedication to this goal
tout some method involved with remembering; the remembering
of a special word, of a teacher, of oneself, but the fact remains;
The
past only serves to make the weak weaker,
and
the sleeping, sleepier.
Behind
every great bed is a blank wall --
just
WAITING to be realized.
A
man with a history is a dead man walking.
After
he awoke and caught on to what is going on, all one man ever said
after that were these two words, over and over again: "Who
knew?!"
Being
"asleep" is like having something to hide,
and
trying to "wake up" is like trying to cover up the fact, but going
about it backwards.
…..and
all he ever said after that was: Who
knew?!?!""
Jan
P.S.:
The person responsible for the above notices later had this to say:
"I can no longer ignore a great divide between me and my apparent
audience; between the matter that interests me, and what my readers
are interested in -- me in ideas, they in behavior. While I am interested
only in the activity of the mind, they are interested primarily
in the activity of the body -- me in how to awaken, they merely
in how to behave.
I
marvel that I have the apparent audience that I do.
A
son said to his father; "Explain to me as simply as possible what
it actually is to, ‘Be asleep’.", and the elder replied: "It is
to go along with the collective pretending that certain things matter
which do not."
There was once a man who made speeches on the subject: "If you do
not think beyond your own thoughts you can never wake up", but says
that what he would really like to talk to people about is the fact
that if you do not ever get beyond thinking that thinking
has much of anything to do with the life you actually lead you will
forever live in a partially darkened room while it is bright &
sunny just outside where your head is now.
………..ahhh,
but Mexico is great this time of year…………come on down.
J.
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September
22, 2000. I come to you today from Hamilton, Bermuda where
the gentility is so thick that when the government is violently
overthrown they refer to it as a coup de -- tah-tah! Government,
in the routine world, offers a bounteous, manifest allegory for
the veiled world of thought in man’s head, and it is from this base
that I will initiate today’s verbal expedition into that single,
sui generis affair of interest to us here.
Just
as many
have suspected, (but not understood), man IS a victim of a vast
political "conspiracy", and it’s unheard theme song goes like this:
"I don’t care how you vote as long as I count the ballots.", (and
you will never guess who it is singing this. Man!,
you are going to love it when I finally reveal his identity!)
Man’s
defining characteristic -- thinking -- cannot function properly
and fulfill its responsibilities without the sensation of it being
unfettered. If it did not seem that the mind is free to think of
any possibility it momentarily chooses, the many survival and life
enhancing invention that are a product of its activity would not
be. Just as has long been noted in the physical world: under repressive
governments, advancements in science and technology are stifled,
not to mention, innovations in the arts. Men can be physically caged
like animals and suffer no more corporeal damage than would they.
But when men are made to feel that they do not have the freedom
to think whatever they please -- they wither. It is as though
their very "humanity" is taken from them. (En passant; it
is from this that, "brain washing" of prisoners during wartime,
(torture of their mind), is more vigorously condemned than is mistreatment
of their body…..[I mention this just in case you still do not fully
appreciate the mind’s ability to look after itself. Note that the
liver or duodenum do not have such protective lobbying carried on
on their behalf.])
Rudimentary
knowledge
of your own mental activity clearly displays the ever present, though
unanalyzed sensation that you are totally free to have & entertain
whatever thoughts you may care to invite into your neural home.
No ordinary, sane person will dispute this, and indeed, if a person
does, he is immediately judged by his peers to be, "mentally
incompetent". Amongst routine men, to say that your own mind
is not under your own control is the clearest possible example of,
"insanity". ….and yet …….
You
do not plan in advance -- what particular thought you will
have next,
the
undeniable truth is that you do not KNOW what thought will
momentarily occupy your mind next.
(En
passant Jr.: how can an ordinary, reasonably intelligent
human be confronted with this glaring, inescapable fact
and not INSTANTLY be awakened as to what is really going
on?! Note that I present this as a rhetorical question,
since I know the answer……you do too…..I told you just a
few sentences ago, remember? -- the mind’s singular talent
for self preservation?!?!)
Consider
then the situation before us; all sane people believe that under
sane conditions they are free to think whatever thoughts they may
choose, in spite of the fact that a most cursory glance at their
own mental activity clearly reveals something else entirely
is going on.
And
how, you ask, can this impossible, dumbfounding situation be
explained, simple --- a conspiracy. A gigantic governmental
hoax being played on the unsuspecting populous, (they really
just pretend to be unsuspecting….well, actually they
do not pretend; you see, part of the conspiracy is in making
them pretend to pretend. Ah, come on -- you know what I‘m saying!
-- and don’t pretend that you don’t!)
The
great conspiratorial hoax plays out thus.
As
times and man changed, those who would rule gradually came to the
realization that it was easier to control people if they were not
aware of their subjugation. A ruler can exercise control much more
efficiently if the ruled believe that rather than them living in
a dictatorship with limited freedom they reside in a democratic
republic wherein they have a vote and are free to elect whoever
they please to the seat of power. (Now back to the unbroadcast theme
of this topic).
"I
don’t care who you vote for as long as I count the ballots."
Yes,
I say to you that there IS a "Great Conspiracy"
that controls the destiny of man -- and it is run by life
itself.
LIFE
is
the, "great conspirator".
This
is why the conspiracy buffs can never satisfactorily identify
the "real" source of the great conspiracy they so ardently suspect.
(Just in case you still underestimate the credulity of thought,
reflect on this: those who believe that there are mortal conspirators
who are so clever and so powerful that they secretly control
the life of man, are yet also able to believe that the conspirators
are so stupid and inept that they unwittingly allow their nefarious
activities to be found out by said believers, against who they
conspire and whose lives they control. [To help distract man
in this regard, life introduced into his mind the concept of,
"God" – (I sometimes wonder how, amidst all the laughing it
must do, life finds time to get any work done?!)] --
but, back to the main course).
Fact:
Since man can think – life obviously WANTS him to think.
Fact:
For thought to work profitably it must think that it is free.
Fact:
Men think that their thinking is free and unrestricted.
Fact:
Simple observation of oneself shows this to be untrue, but ordinary
people pretend to be unaware of this fact, and thus life flows along
normally -- just as you witness it now.
A
dictatorship in disguise as a democratic republic can stage
open elections wherein everyone is free to vote for whatever
candidate they wish -- all that is necessary for the dictatorship
to remain forever in power is that it count the ballots and
announce the results.
Can
any of you sitting out there reading this,
with
your thoughts in some fashion, trailing along,
see
that what I am actually describing is man’s mental
electoral
activity in relationship to life’s obvious total
rulership
over us.
Your
mind, (having no apparent alternative), thinks -- and
"feels" -- that it is free to vote for, (choose), any
candidate, (thought), it may desire --- BUT,
life
tallies the ballots, that is to say –
your
mind, (the voter), did not actually decide the outcome
of the election, (choose the next thought to have) --
life did.
Conspiracies
don’t get any better than this;
They
don’t get any bigger than this!….they CAN’T!
Nothing
comes any bigger than life.
Dig
it: A conspiracy is no good if it is so limited as to leave anyone
out -- for if it does -- then it can be found out.
Yes,
friends & neighbors,
there IS a "great conspiracy" which not only governs the
tangible life of man, (which is of no interest to the few),
but which is also in total control of the thoughts that so endlessly,
and so effortlessly -- magically appear in your mind.
And
least you underestimate the efficacy of the conspiracy; ask
your mind if it is indeed a victim of a conspiracy, and is simply
being tricked into thinking that it is the actual source of
the thoughts it thinks, and even after having just read
what I said about the matter, you will find that your ordinary
mind cannot directly deal with it; it will, (so to speak), go
momentarily – blank; it will for an instant --
freeze up -- then your thinking will quickly revert
back to its ordinary mechanical, effortless flow and you will
have forgotten that the entire little episode ever occurred.
Those
few blessed with that certain anomalistic hunger for that certain
understanding, (i.e. "Awakening, Enlightenment, Liberation"),
have hardwired into them the capacity to realize, and thus accept
this universal "conspiracy", and in their private life no longer
be bothered by it.
Fact:
To be of ordinary mind is to be able to believe in a gigantic, mortal
conspiracy.
Fact:
To believe in a mortal conspiracy is exactly what the REAL conspiracy
WANTS you to do.
Do
you begin to catch on?! --- well, certainly you do not!
…..there
is nothing to "catch on" TO.
…..see,
right here is where the conspiracy has its finest
hour.
You
cannot "wake up" your mind unless you think that it
is asleep -- AND,
your
mind will never completely awake as long as you believe
that it is not.
***
Behind every great conspiracy is -- nothing. ***
This
is why neuroscientists cannot find the precise area in the brain
from which conscious thought originates,
meteorologists
cannot accurately predict the weather,
theologians
cannot locate God,
no
one knows what they are going to say next -- and YOU want to, "Wake
up".
It
is all one, big, neat package.
It
is a delight, and nothing whatsoever binding OR blinding.
….all
you have to do is -- look over your shoulder –
look
over your mental shoulder, and see what is plainly there to
be seen: A conspiracy --
a
conspiracy SO large, (universal), that it cannot be seen.
…thus
I call it: The
Great Conspiracy of Nothingness.
(Don’t
forget that as always, all I am really talking about here is
the mind.)
Jan
The
first sage said: "As long as you are engrossed in thinking
about awakening -- you will remain asleep." ,
and
the second sage said "Yes, and also as long as you are thinking
about baseball.",
"Indeed.",
said the first sage, "And: also as long as you are thinking about
the stock market.",
"Quite
so.", said the second sage, "And your appearance.",
"And
your car.", said the first,
"And
next week’s dental appointment.", added the second,
"And…"
-- "Okay! -- enough already!", injected a third sage -- "I
get the point."
…….."I
doubt that", muttered the first sage under his breath,
"Hey
--- I didn’t hear that!", countered the third.
….or,
(speaking in rhetropsect), as Bambi said to Hoover: "Frankly my
dam, I don’t give a deer.",
to
which I add; "And neither should you -- except you know where to
apply it.)
J.
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