Jan Cox Talk 3170 - 7 July 2004
Copyright Jan Cox, Jan’s Legacy 2017
Notes by Fish July 2017
Suggested Title: Willfully Conscious (Listen to Yourself Talk)
Begin: Something that came to me in a news story and something you can use to keep you willfully conscious. The news story was about one of the benefits of not being “willfully conscious.” You don’t have to listen to yourself.
Another benefit of not being willfully conscious is the idea of the partnership. When people talk, they say things like “I think”, that if you listen, it’s like a partnership, something is talking in your head and something hears it talk.
Normally, nobody really thinks about it. But a distinct manifestation of ordinary consciousness, one in which it is not truly aware, simply, ordinary consciousness does not listen to itself. Ordinarily, people say they do listen to themselves.
05:00 it’s fairly easy to listen to yourself. It may take a few minutes. But after a few tries, you can realize the way in which you can listen to yourself, you ordinarily do not listen to yourself. It’s along the lines of a certain investigation.
You “listen to yourself talk” then you forget to listen, by going back to the ordinary running of consciousness, then you remember what you were trying to investigate, and you’ve got a second or two window, and then its gone.
Maybe the last scenes of what my consciousness was showing, or the words that were going on. But I am aware of more than the last few seconds of what was going on in consciousness, when I remember to listen myself.
The last few seconds of running consciousness, when I look and listen, I can realize that there are major scenes that play over and over. And you don’t have to rewind the scene much to know what the scene was about.
10:00 Tonights point: Remembering your new investigation (listening to your self). remembering you’re back asleep. remembering you are back in ordinary consciousness, simply remembering you are asleep takes you out of it.
But you only have a few seconds to latch on to the last few seconds of what was going on, of the scenes of ordinary consciousness. And compare that with the state you have willfully produced right now.
And its clear, that you were not really listening. In a sense, you were listening, or you could not be aware of the last few seconds of ordinary consciousness. (being asleep) Ordinary people say they do listen to themselves.
But if you look around at folks, if they’re not reading from a script, people continually misspeak, Its the nature of ordinary consciousness. People do not listen to themselves, ordinarily, because it’s not required. They never think about it.
15:00 In a sense, people do listen themselves talk, but it’s not with the same awareness, that can be used. If ordinary consciousness is challenged, it can remember something from a minute ago but sometimes it’s seriously not listening.
20:00 If ordinary consciousness is not planning, it’s talking, it is not really listening. If you want to listen to yourself talk all you have to do is make yourself willfully conscious. Maybe you can listen to yourself talk already.
But if you become willfully conscious while you talk you will become aware in a way no one can describe verbally. Through the years folks have tried to describe this (ex being asleep, being awake). You can still enjoy the terms but you don’t need them.
25:00 It’s a feeling when you make yourself “willfully conscious.” Even if the brain, by all accounts, has no feelings. And even after the fact of making yourself willfully conscious, you can hear what you were thinking the last few seconds.
And you realize when you compare the ordinary state of consciousness, to the feeling of “willfully conscious”, that in the ordinary state you were not really listening. It’s as though the ordinary state is not fully operative.
The ordinary state is spending energy talking and listening. If you unify the talking and listening (the partnership, Smith and Jones, etc.) into a one man operation (ex. willfully conscious) its like pulling the cotton out of your ears.
30:00 I propose “listen to yourself talk,” and when quiet “attentive to your thinking” as a tool, as a new specific investigation. Use it to monitor the poor quality of your hearing when you are in your ordinary state of consciousness.
35:00 Compare the momentary “willfully conscious” state to the ordinary state of thinking and talking. Ordinarily, there is a minimal vague awareness of what you’re thinking and talking. And it doesn’t matter.
And don’t you find that spooky?