Accessing The Marrow.........Or How To Become....Not You

Accessing The Marrow...Or How To become, NOT YOU


Rick Moser

Wandering among the inner vistas, views which by their very nature seem only as unreachable dreams for most of us, it occurs to me there might be a method by which some of you readers will stand for nothing less than full accessibility. Accessing the marrow of Life in every aspect of your daily travels can yield amazing results. Most of us learn to be content with the hum drum existence, taking for granted no one really has any specific "answers" for both the "big" questions (Why are we here, What is my Purpose...etc) as well as the little ones like why did I pay over $20 for this book anyway?

Since the entire idea of "Time" is arbitrarily invented for the sole purpose of allowing our process of mentation to exist I will be "tripping the light fantastic", as it were, throughout this manuscript.  Do not attempt to hold on to any specific time frame either of your invention nor mine.

Almost every thought, feeling, sensation, experience of any kind, both internally & externally, is processed within our own brain in such a manner as to completely "miss the point" (assuming there is a point to any of it). I am completely correct in uttering the phrase "Everything You Think You Know Is Incorrect". Most of you will merely dismiss this statement as nonsense, as you rightly should. A very few might wish to know the basis for such a claim. Stick around because we will return to this at a much later time.

What does one have to do to experience "new" information or "new" processes with regard to how we experience Life in any viable form both internally (what you call thinking) as well as visceral day to day interactions at the street level? The answer to that question is tied directly to the one about "everything you think you know is incorrect".

So...I ask you, is this book about cool ideas, deep thoughts, revolutionary thinking?

If it is about any of those choices then I am wasting both yours and my time and we both should go bowling instead of reading on. Rather, if my methods here have any merit for either of us your entire mental processing of EVERYTHING needs re-fabricating. You have no idea how difficult this might be but one thing is for certain, I would not bother to waste your time if I wasn't 100% certain this is possible, doable, & downright necessary for your continued interest in living Life to the max with each and every breath.

A couple of things this book is NOT about. I have no interest in having you believe in anything, rather my sole interest is forcing your internal gaze to accept nothing less than full on direct experience both at the street level as well as internally. Only then will any of this re-fabricate your entire processing ability at the highest level of  mentation, the likes of which you have never even glanced upon even in your wildest dreams. Also, if you are of the inclination to feel Life has a higher purpose for you and now is your chance to have it all revealed.......put this back on the shelf and go bowling anyway.

I can say, unequivocally, this manuscript will never become a popular reading item and if it does I have certainly mis written it. The real purpose of any writings, such as these, would be to allow the reader to deconstruct his or her entire existence while simultaneously for the first time learn how to wander (internally) amidst the wasteland of thinking and out of the ashes of everyday thoughts catch a glimpse of potential, never before dreamed of, sparkles with rich, never ending portals of entry to the world of  NOT YOU.

I know you have heard all about that popular desire to "find yourself" seek that inner "YOU" and discover your purpose in Life. Please, if you are to benefit from any of the words in this book do me a favor.......forget that a "YOU" ever existed. Relish the hour when something in you realizes there is not  now nor has there ever been a "You".

Even if I am incorrect in any description found in these writings (not likely) to make the most of this a simple foundation of your thinking status must be forever disconnected.

Much like the phrase "everything you think you know is incorrect" the idea of a stable and unified "YOU" existing somewhere in your internal mentation is simply a lie.

Remember how I said we are on a journey through disjointed "Time" and to ignore any real time discrepancies....ok then hold on, here we go.

Moms & Dads always try to do their dutiest to guide their little darlings through Life as best they can. We all start off with an entire imaginary set of apparent Do's & Dont's with regard to simple actions, speech, etc. You are four years old and now you hear commands from the parents to try and understand emotions such as love, hate, like, dislike, good , bad...the list is endless. You don't actually process this nonsense as either positive or negative until at some point the parent scolds or encourages such behavior. When you find encouragement for some action or speech your mentation suggests some form of "right" and the scolding emphasizes "wrong". The brain has little choice but to make these apparent connections for future use. Once again the "YOU" part of yourself is building a false foundation that is destined to crash at some point just this side of puberty, or shortly thereafter. Not to worry, Moms & Dads did their rightful duty and no blame can be assigned to them nor should it be. In fact, the very first completely NEW connection you can have while re-fabricating your mentation is one that will completely forgive parents of any wrong doing in the fetching up of you. Real forgiveness can only be had if you should someday find that the writings here have led you to an internal land where accusations of blame, disgust, distrust, malevolence and a million other similar feelings simply vanish. They disappear and become worthless amidst the notion that a re-fabricated existence deems such nonsense as no longer necessary for a life of seamless visage from all 360 points of view.

Ok  here's where your ancient mentation process will ask, "well what about all the religious teachings from around the world"? "Aren't we to credit their teachings with moral instruction and, if so, surely there must be an objective set of "rights" & "wrongs"?

See there, now that is why re-fabrication of this entire mentation is REALLY necessary.

Men & Women down through the ages have had no choice but to create myths to our existence on a "need to do so" basis. Regardless of whose culture created which type of imaginary deity there was indeed a NEED for it at the time, either for survival or to keep each other from slaughtering themselves.  Once again no blame here is expected for all the apparent wrong doings of a particular sect or group of organized people claiming justification for their action or inactions. Remember this manuscript is NOT about creating another imagined set of beliefs, least of all condemning one group of people over another regardless of what they stand for. Re-fabrication of mentation is a process which by it's very nature will discard any beliefs in ANYTHING. All that will be left is hard core glimpses, connected by other views, worlds apart from younger mis connections the brain had no choice but to make at the time.

By the way if you think I have forgotten the other side of imaginary emotions we all get fetched up with, such as the big one, love....well it too was a product of our misguided youth, at least in the form so popularly used today. For a re-fabricated mentation to be of any benefit to the organism employing same I will admit something akin to "love" will make an appearance. You won't like this discovery unless you are ok with pursuing some heavy duty effort to reproduce same. In the land of re-discovered, re-fabricated mentation the REAL version of what's behind the term "love" requires a lifetime of effort to illicit and even longer to actualize, internally to oneself, much less on a fellow human being.

It's not that it's a dreamscape and unrealizable......but you better practice on easier accessibilities such as refusal to "kick" at someone's apparent mis-interpretation of your own failings. In the land of internal re-fabrication no matter what emerges vocally from your lips someone is ALWAYS ready to turn it against you no matter how sweet your pronouncement.

Ok enough of the delicacies and on to some basic "lookout belows" to view in a completely unorthodox method, hopefully for your ultimate internal benefit as we wander further into the abyss, where you have never considered wandering before!

If you still insist upon reading further I must warn you this manuscript is not simply a "read & wonder" kind of  experience, rather, if you have the passion to take it upon your own to dispel most of what Life has forced you to accept, regarding real evolution of thought via actual "hands off experience" then let's begin with a few little known methods to turn your mentation upside down in favor of a type of internal discovery known only to the very FEW humans who demand of themselves excellence of living.

How is it possible to completely re-write your very mentative existence such that everything you experience will be seen with a completely NEW sense of relative understanding? Everyone has experienced the harsh reality of another person confronting him or her with aspersions of one type or another. Your own reaction (either internally or vocally in retort) is usually something completely contrived by an uncontrollable force within which ,according to type, resembles voices from some distant, unknown construct with neither your approval nor responsibility. You have experienced this type of event since you were 3 years old and in every instance powerless to react in an alternative manner. If you are the type to submit to such harassment it is likely no words will emanate from your mouth, rather, all retorts will remain in your ordinary mental reactive mind. No real means of closure and continuous invitations to illicit memories of extreme negative sensation that likely follow you around to your own demise some day. This manuscript is about permanently circumnavigating all social aspersions either from other humans or your own apparent sensation of self. Here's a real life example of how to cease any form of reaction to such events: Next time this actual scene arises, and we ALWAYS know it's coming beforehand, take the complete opposing view from your normal reaction and force a new situation to occur. Force an internal agreement with whatever negative energy is coming your way such that it emulates what the ancient teaching of Tai Chi encourages. Instead of your normal reaction of resistance, allow such energy to be embraced as if you knew all along the truth to such accusation. It becomes an extreme ACT to force a different character's absorption rather than rebuttal. This entire process happens in milliseconds, or it has no chance of happening at all.

Don't just sit here and posit such a scenario and then let that ordinary process of the mind suggest" oh yea I can see where that might work". Actively remember to turn the energy inside out upon next experiencing this type of event. If you have to, put this book down and don't read another word until you have taken the effort to heart and ACTUALLY done the deed. In other words this manuscript is not here for a cursory read, open to opinions of value, it is in fact REAL methods that produce REAL differences in a person's daily living process. Most highly talented actors, when asked in an interview, how are you able to put your own sense of self away when you are acting a scene so foreign to your very character, will respond with something along the following lines......"I become so completely immersed in my own invention of this opposing character's living process the  "Me" that walks & talks day in and day out simply vanishes, I then AM the opposing character for the duration of that scene.

This manuscript is about PERMANENTLY revising the YOU that has occupied most of your years on the planet to such an extent that EVERY future experience you have will become a conscious act where a completely different character has the chance to breathe through your newly invented sense of NOT YOU!

This process I speak of here, one of encouraging the ordinary you to vanish in favor of a more actively invented alternative character capable of real choice for the first time is a process of subtraction much like the process  of sculpting an artistic piece from previously unrecognizable hunk of clay or stone. Picture your everyday mentation as thoughts with no real direction, springing out of nowhere with no real direction or control. Does that about cover it? Do you really imagine you know with 100% certainty what you are fixing to say NEXT?

Re-Fabricating your own mentation process is akin to starting to sculpt an artistic rendering requiring conscious attention to skilled use of tools appropriate to the removal of nonessential material. This ACT, if you will, of  internally redirecting some negative energy coming your way is the epitome of conscious action. There are many methods to suggest in aiding this process but no method is worth a damn if it is not willfully executed with each and every waking breath.


Rick Moser

Born in Bethesda, MD in 1951 here is a person who never quite settled for the "normal" lifestyle. The idea of extraordinary living seemed inevitable and at an early age (21), as luck would have it, the opportunity to explore "extraordinary" living, via an understanding of REAL experience (as opposed to imagined book learning),found it's way to his own mentation. As with most efforts, persistence became the necessary effort once a real system of alternative consciousness became available. Forty two years later (NOW) these musings may server to give a few like minded internal travelers the opportunity to attempt a similar journey. For a few of you this may be your ONLY chance to escape the vagaries of your own Life produced sense of "self".